I’m officially 22. This is weird.
Its really hard being practically in love with someone who used to want you, but now only wants you when you’re naked. I mean, I know how this works. I said I was ok with this. I offered a no strings arrangement. But since then, I’ve spilled my guts. You know how I feel about you, but my feelings are too serious for you. Even though when I was good enough to be your girlfriend, you spouted the L word way before I did.
I guess that’s what I don’t understand. How many men are going to pull a 180 on me? How many are going to sit there and tell me how great I am and then just up and change their mind? What is it that’s so fucking wrong with me?
And why do I fall even more when they leave…
I just wish you would care about me all the time the way you do when I’m around. I wish you would stop fucking me like you love me. I wish that I didn’t have any feelings at all.